i feel really really torn about it all. i'm not sure why i'm doing the things i'm doing. and i genuinely want to do it, but everytime i think of it turning out lousy, i get really turned off -.- sighs. fuck la. i don't know.

i think i'm really asking to get burnt. i really wonder what the fuck shit i'm doing. i always did like difficult things. just that i don't really have much confidence in it. fuck